Don't know what happened recently....

Don't know what happened recently..
We two always argue..
Argue with the same problem..
I always is the one start to argue...


Valentines day...
Its the second valentines day we celebrate together..
Its our first year anniversary for us..
Its the most important day for me..
I just want to celebrate with him..
I don't want any present or flowers..
I just want we two together..
I know I very selfish....
Seem like everyone have the nice valentines day..
Sweet and lovely...
I'm so envy with them...
I Having a buffet dinner with him and his friends for the night..
I not eat much..
since I no mood and unhappy those few days because of my study..
I think he will wasted his money for bringing me to eat buffet dinner on that night...
Sorry my dear..


He try to make me happy..
But I cold to him..
I hate that night..
I hate myself so cruel when in angry..
Don't wanna to face him or talk with him when in angry..
Never mind..Its past..
I don't wanna to say about it anymore..
Just hope u take more time to accompany me more..
I really want with u two people only..
We not always can together..




Last night,
we have argument again..
Still the same..
I start the argument again..
I hate him go drinks..
Am I selfish?
I know I am..
I don't like he go drinks and he have to drive alone back home..
but I not along with him..
How I hope my bf not a person who know how to drink alcohol..
So I not need to worry him much..
Tired of this relationship...
I don't know how to keep this relationship anymore..
Please.....
I try my best..
Don't make say the same words again..
I know we are hurt..
Sorry for my bad temper...
I will control it..
Try to give you more freedom..
So we will less argue..




We almost two weeks din see each other...
I miss him..
I miss him a lot..
We seldom more than one week din see each other..
but we said we have to wait 9 March just can meet each other..
I don't want him come KK and drive alone..
So what can i do is just WAITING~~~~ 
TIME PLEASE GO AFTER..
I WAN TO SEE HIM..
I MISS HIM A LOT.. =(






This song is full of meanings..
Love its lyrics...
Especially this part...
I've been working hard so long,
seems like pain has been my only friend,
my fragile heart's been done so wrong,
I wondered if I'd ever heal again..

Just like all the seasons never stay the same,
All around me I can feel a change ..

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me,
leave the past behind me, today my life begins,
a whole new world is waiting It's mine for the taking,
I know I can make it, today my life begins..

Yesterday has come and gone,
and I've learned how to leave it where it is,
and I see that I was wrong,
for ever doubting I could win....